Today when I come home from school I don’t want you to call me to your bedroom pretending to want to ask me something when all you want to do is push your hands up my dress and into my panty.
When I try to “run away” from you, by going into the kitchen (which I think is a safe space), I don’t want you to push me against the fridge and kiss me so hard my teeth hurt and then still force your tongue into my mouth. It is so disgusting.
While using your body to keep me stuck between the fridge and your body with your mouth covering mine, I am powerless to stop you from pushing your other hand under my dress and into my panty and forcefully pushing your finger into my vagina. That really hurts. I usually hurt for days afterwards.
While grandma is cooking in the kitchen and you lure me into your bedroom, please don’t try to force me to lie on the bed so you can take pleasure in sticking your hand into my panty and your finger into my vagina – forcefully stopping me from screaming by keeping my mouth closed.
I really wish I did not have to look over my shoulder all the time when I’m at your house. I really wish I did not have to fear being left alone with you at any time.
You know that my disability makes it physically difficult to fight you because you are so much stronger than I am.
You know that your secret is safe with me because I’m too scared to tell my mom and dad because they would never believe me (especially my dad because you are his dad). They would probably just say I must have done something to make you do this to me.
All I want is for you to love me like a grandpa should love his grand-daughter.
From: Your loving 9-year old grand-daughter